Recently some of you may know, that I decided to take a trip to South Carolina to meet someone who I never met before... It was one of those internet contact things, and well it's safe to say it's now more than that. Life throws funny things your way and I've learned that. It's weird to have your whole life pretty much planned out for you and then all of a sudden you are growing and changing. This trip is making me discover a new me... someone that was waiting to come out. I've learned that I'm really not a jealous person, and yes, I do fall for people fast, but that's not necessarily a bad thing.
I'm growing. Very much. And I also have to say that I miss my family a great deal. I have only been gone for 10 days, and would be leaving today, but I decided that it would be good for me to stay. So far, the plans are to stay the whole summer. . . then at the end of summer, I would like to bring this amazing girl home to meet my family. I have only known her for about 3.5 months, give or take a little, and in that short amount of time, she has treated me very well, and I believe maybe even helped me find myself a little.
I don't know what I'm doing now, and quite frankly, I like it. Like i said before, I've had my whole life planned out... not knowing what's going to come next or how things are going to happen is a nice change. I feel free. I feel unique. I feel like I'm worth something. And no, it's not all because of this girl. Although she does play a part in it.
Contemplation is a very hard thing to overcome when it deals with your family and choosing where you want to live and what you want to do with your life. I have faith in myself in that I will chose the right thing for me, even though it may be hard. Like that famous saying "When life throws you lemons, make lemonade." and well I plan on making a lot of juice. :) I just want you to know that I LOVE YOU GUYS!!! (Family)
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